You can not do that!
Live the Life You Were Given
This is a hard subject to talk about, but, it needs to be brought to attention. That subject is suicide. People with depression always carry the idea in the back of their mind. Let’s keep it there!
I have seen what suicide can do to people. Let me tell you a story about my cousin. He had graduated from High School, went into the Army and married the woman he loved.
Two younger brother lived close by. His Mom and Dad had divorced so now he had a great Step-Dad and a new Step-Mom. Many aunts and uncles and many cousins and they all got along great. He and his wife had a sweet baby boy that they named after his brothers.
Well, as in many marriages things led to divorce. I don’t know the reasons, but, I would bet one of them was depression. It runs rampant in our family.
Everyone knew he was in trouble and watched him closely. They spent a lot of time with him. They played cards a lot at his younger brothers house. A lot of laughing and smart remarks and teasing. It was usually his brothers, his Dad, his uncle and anyone else that came over. Fun for all!
He was still laughing at something when he went upstairs to the bathroom and shot himself in the back of the head with a shotgun.
His brothers and uncle spent the next day picking his beloved brains hair and skin out of the bathroom ceiling.
A young girl that I worked with went home one day and found her Mother dead on her bed. She used pills. The girl was devastated and felt guilty about what she could have maybe done to help her mom.
A lady I worked with went home to find her son dead. He had used a rope and hanged himself in their garage. She cried and worried that maybe he didn’t know just how much she loved him.
The list goes on and on. Now days it’s “bad drugs”. Drugs and alcohol are addictive and depressants. Drugs are deadly now days even if you don’t want to kill yourself….don’t get started. If you are, be brave, get help.
Alcohol is also a drug of choice. My suicidal cousins middle brother chose not to get a liver transplant because he said he would not stop drinking. Another cousin was dead at the age of 40, very young, from drinking. Two of my friends lost sons from “bad drugs”.
If you need help-get it! It is not weak. It is strong and unselfish. Go see different people (it does not have to be a professional.) until you find one you can talk too.
In the meantime get in touch with nature. Get outside and touch the ground. Walking barefoot outside is called earthing. Feed the birds and be amazed at how many kinds there are. Look at the sky and clouds. Look at the billions of stars and night. Go help a neighbor do yard work, That will get you constructively get out of your head for a while. You don’t have to talk or be social, just get outside. It will help you a whole lot.
This was a hard and ugly blog post to write. Now that I’m done I think I will go eat some chocolate. Food can also be a drug of choice. Sigh.
You are the only one that can help you not to go the suicide route. Work at it. It has been in my head most of my life. Life goes a lot faster than you think. Hang onto it and don’t let the devil win. You are tougher than you think and you will not want to ruin the lives of your loved ones. They love you and you are worth the pain you will need to go thru to make this life.
Maybe something like a service dog is exactly what you need.
And there is always ice cream.